Mako Mori

Pacific Rim is awesome yo. Yeh, yeh, yeh monsters. Yes, yes, yes robots. My favourite bit was the CHICK THAT KICKED ALL THE ASS. Mako Mori. ^-^ 

Worry Wart #29

I spent a day in therapy.
A whole 6 hours learning about my thinking. It has been the best thing I could have done. I have been slowly but surely making amazing steps these past few months. Infact: 2013 in general is going to be such a landmark year for me when I look back. A few different techniques, in combination with each other, coupled with unrivalled love and support have meant that I feel like I've finally, finally cracked it. This anxiety thing. This shit thing!

So this is the beginning of the end of Worry Wart. Thank you for all the amazing messages of support and all the incredible conversations that have been as a result of me baring my soul to you in comic strip form (sort of :p) I don't know how many pages it will take me to end the comic, but it will have a happy ending! I am so, so, soooo much better now. It will contain my experiences of hypnotherapy, ASMR, nutrition therapy, stress and mood management courses, CBT, meditation and my (hopefully) final visit to the doctor.

I have never felt so over this.
I don't believe anxiety has the power to ever scare me again. I know what it is. I know exactly what it is. It doesn't mean I can stop it from happening, but when it does? I am sure it will hold no where near as much power over me as it did all those years ago.
This has been a 5 year battle. It is so hard to relay that in a short comic. And it will be hard to finish it properly. But finish it I must.

Because this comic, or rather the making of this comic, is no longer beneficial to me. And that was always what it was intended for, to be beneficial to me. I am now so far removed from the character in these pages. I don't need to relive these memories. But it will always be here, to remind me just how far I have come. How many steps I took. How I never gave up, no matter how loudly I threatened to. How much I have learned.

I hope that you will always enjoy reading it. One day, if I can figure out how to stitch some sort of narrative into it's tangled mess, I would love to print it ^-^ I would also love to redraw it! Hah!

And you should give yourself a hug every once in awhile! Because, no matter what, we are always trying! And that's the shitting most anyone can ask of us, ever!

To read Worry Wart from the beginning click here!

Squishy Head: Milk

Squishy Head: Toy Day

Squishy Head: Tongue

Squishy Head: Kiss Chase

Squishy Head: Lunch

Squishy Head: Sex

Worry Wart #28

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Squishy Head: Skin

Worry Wart #27

I know I have touched on this before, eliminating foods, but it really was such a psychologically massive part of my life around 2010-2011. I wouldn't eat anywhere. There was only bread left in my diet at one point... HO BOY WAS THAT AN ERROR. The comic will reveal why soon enough, but for now here is page 27! Wow, 27 pages! Good going, bintykins. I wish I hadn't have bloody lied to the CBT lady, or to everyone else for that matter. I didn't even tell my partner at the time. Having no one to talk to makes EVERYTHING worse. You just have this internal war all day long. I have learned a very valuable lesson. But some behaviours prevail, unfortunately. Not eating before I have a journey/event/meeting/interview is one of them. I have starved myself for days before a train journey just to make sure I'm 'empty.' Not healthy at all. To read Worry Wart from the beginning click here!

Squishy Head: Friend

Worry Wart has a cover! And a page #26!

What do you think? :D

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Squishy Head

Axa

Here is a drawing of Axa that I coloured up as a birthday pressie for a very good friend of mine. I have included the stages as I find it so interesting when I see other artists breakdowns! I am trying to really push my colouring lately! I hope I'm getting better :D

Also: here's a cheeky bit of reference I used! It's not even Axa! :D Mmmmmm Xena...

Dexter's Half Dozen pin-up

Dexters Half Dozen is one of my abso fave UK Indie titles! They have 8 issues out and are currently collecting them together to print as trades. When artist David Clifford asked me to do a pin up to print in the back of one of their books I almost jumped on him! I was so excited! So here she is! I think it's my bestest work ever, I am so happy with it! I've collected the baddies from The Pit of Pestilence issues (#5 and #6) and thrown Walpurgis in for good measure. I love a bad girl, me, and DHD is full of them! Anna cons the soliders into following her to their certain doom. She says 'Do you know what it is like, to lose everyone you ever loved?' Tricksy bitch!

I bloody love Dave's artwork! And I never thought I could get so sucked into a WWII story quite so much as I am with this series! It is written by Jamie Lambert and he is one funny dude! I hope you can see just how much I love this comic in my pin up. It doesn't do the series justice though: CHECK IT OOOOUT!

Commission: Instruction signage!

I recently had a brief to create some instruction sheets for some equipment used in a stop-motion animation studio! Specifically in the puppet making department and, even more specifically, for a cool bit of kit called a Vacuum Chamber!
Here is my finished work:

I got the chance to use it too! Watching air being sucked out of silicone is coooool!

I am currently open for commissions!

Need some 'toons? You let me know, yeah!? I am so contactable it's almost sad! I work digitally. Full colour, B&W, character art, comics pages, whatever your project needs! Get in touch and we can talk quotes! I can work to suit all budgets!

Hope you enjoyed the sketch dump! I have been busy preparing for, travelling to, enjoying and selling at and eventually, getting over Bristol Comic Expo 2013! What a blast! We sold 90 comics! That's amazing - it's only our second con and we are over the mooooon! You can buy one or both issues of RAZARHAWK over at our Comicsy Store! Woo woo!

Worry Wart #25

You can find out everything you need to from www.moodpanda.com
I downloaded it from the app store on my iPhone back when I was doing CBT. It's great for recording your mood as a numerical value so you can remember for later. The best thing about it is seeing all your Happy and Sad updates in one place, so you can spot patterns. If you can spot a pattern then you are more likely to make changes and stick to them - it's tailored, it works for you.
I became so in love with moodpanda I even designed the sites avatars :)

Here are some of the avatars I drew!

It also offers a community of like minded people, all over the world. More often than not, someone will be feeling exactly the same as you - and they can let you know in the form of virtual hugs! It's recently featured on American telly too! On NBC! Not bad for a free app created in Bristol!

If you don't want hugs then you can make it entirely private too! But who doesn't like hugs!?

I know I sound like a sales rep, but I really can't tell you how much moodpanda has dragged me through some awful times. And I don't really need to sell it, if you feel like me then you'll know how useful it could be.

I love tech!

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