Sunday, 11 August 2013
Worry Wart #29
A whole 6 hours learning about my thinking. It has been the best thing I could have done. I have been slowly but surely making amazing steps these past few months. Infact: 2013 in general is going to be such a landmark year for me when I look back. A few different techniques, in combination with each other, coupled with unrivalled love and support have meant that I feel like I've finally, finally cracked it. This anxiety thing. This shit thing!
So this is the beginning of the end of Worry Wart. Thank you for all the amazing messages of support and all the incredible conversations that have been as a result of me baring my soul to you in comic strip form (sort of :p) I don't know how many pages it will take me to end the comic, but it will have a happy ending! I am so, so, soooo much better now. It will contain my experiences of hypnotherapy, ASMR, nutrition therapy, stress and mood management courses, CBT, meditation and my (hopefully) final visit to the doctor.
I have never felt so over this.
I don't believe anxiety has the power to ever scare me again. I know what it is. I know exactly what it is. It doesn't mean I can stop it from happening, but when it does? I am sure it will hold no where near as much power over me as it did all those years ago.
This has been a 5 year battle. It is so hard to relay that in a short comic. And it will be hard to finish it properly. But finish it I must.
Because this comic, or rather the making of this comic, is no longer beneficial to me. And that was always what it was intended for, to be beneficial to me. I am now so far removed from the character in these pages. I don't need to relive these memories. But it will always be here, to remind me just how far I have come. How many steps I took. How I never gave up, no matter how loudly I threatened to. How much I have learned.
I hope that you will always enjoy reading it. One day, if I can figure out how to stitch some sort of narrative into it's tangled mess, I would love to print it ^-^ I would also love to redraw it! Hah!
And you should give yourself a hug every once in awhile! Because, no matter what, we are always trying! And that's the shitting most anyone can ask of us, ever!
To read Worry Wart from the beginning click here!